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I DID IT. I left him in his crib. He is asleep and he is in his room.

I feel like I have completely abandoned him.

But I also feel like I’ve taken a huge step as a mom, letting go of some of my craziness and anxiety.

And I also feel like a bad mom and a good mom all at the same time.

Sleep well, Lewis. I may not have you for company in our room tonight, but I will definitely have plenty of company from all of my mommy-anxiety instead. So I won’t be lonely. 🙂