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It has been 2 hours and 10 minutes since he woke up. And he is still f%ing awake.

I just gave him some Tylenol. He hasn’t been screaming as long as I hold him. Just when I put him down and try to leave. I even laid on the floor next to the crib and sang to him for a while and he didn’t scream. It seems to just be a separation thing…? But no matter what I do, he doesn’t sleep. I don’t really know if Tylenol is the right thing to do. But I am at my wit’s end.

So I stepped away for a minute to collect myself because I was so angry, and then I gave him the Tylenol and now I’m rocking him. Again. And he’s just talking and playing with my face.

I mean… at some point he has to fall asleep. He can’t stay awake forever. But boy does it feel like he’s aiming for forever.

I feel like I could die.