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I have no idea what Lewis needs. Clearly it isn’t sleep, because he’s choosing not to do that.

I feel like such a bad mom. I can’t figure him out. Tylenol doesn’t help. Eating doesn’t help. I rock, I bounce, I sing, I jiggle, I shush, I sit still, I hold him upright, I hold him sideways. No matter what I do he is sooooo sad. And awake. What does he need????

Beyond the confusion tonight… How can I get him to sleep every night instead of just sometimes? He’s so inconsistent and unpredictable. It is so hard to know what to do since the issue is different from night to night. And sometimes there is no issue at all. I never know if I’m going to get to sleep or not.

I don’t know what angle to approach this with.