I took a break tonight and Kyle flew solo with kiddo for an hour…. and it was the first guilt free break I’ve taken since Lewis was born!!!
I finally did it. I somehow figured out how to let myself drift away from responsibility for an hour without feeling bad about it. The cause-less guilt we mothers carry around is so heavy, and no one puts it on us but ourselves.
For me, it is a physical feeling. Even if I am not giving it any conscious attention, I can feel it at all times – That tugging, burning, tense feeling in my chest and throat.
I wish I were more successful at pushing it aside more often, but I’ll take this victory. I didn’t feel it for a whole hour today. Go me!!!