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I have been up 1.5 hrs now with the kid.

2 failed crib transfers and building frustration as I start attempt #3 to get the kid back to sleep and into his bed without him waking back up again.

I’m digging so, so deep to try to find some patience. I know I must have some left somewhere in there. But it is buried so far under this pile of fatigue and frustration that it is quite difficult to unearth.