Subconscious

My subconscious is doing funny things. I thought I was mostly just annoyed by this heart rate monitor situation. Convinced that nothing is wrong and I’m just jumping through the hoops because, well, you always listen to your doctor when you’re incubating a little tiny baby.

Apparently I’m only convinced on the surface, because I had a terrible dream last night that I went into labor at 30 weeks and was hospitalized to try to keep the baby in as long as humanly possible using a bunch of scary medical interventions.

I wonder how the heart rate monitor logged that nightmare. I can’t imagine that my body was calm while my subconscious was running through that dream.

Anyway… a little over a day left of wearing the monitor, and then who knows how long until my doc gets the results and (probably) tells me that everything is fine. I just wish that the dizziness and difficulty breathing would stop so that my subconscious would calm down and accept that a compressed vein isn’t serious – just uncomfortable.

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