Ellen weighs in at just over 16 lbs. My two favorite brands of clothes for her start the 6-9 month size at 17 lbs, but we’ve fully made the switch in tops because Ellen’s torso is very long. We’ve switched some of her pants too – because she’s fat – but she has short legs, so they’re all too long.

Anyway, the point of this post is that I don’t know what to do for Ellen’s wardrobe. I have already come across 4 tops in her new size that I can’t even get on her. I can’t even get some of them past her hands, others get stuck further up the arm.

I’m so frustrated! We have all these cute clothes that I love, and she is breezing through them before she can even wear them. 

It feels so wasteful, for starters, but the emotional loss is worse. I’ve been looking forward to her wearing these clothes since we got them, and they’re too small on literally our first attempt at putting her in them.

This feels like it defies physics. It certainly defies logic. And I find it very upsetting. 


We’ve got a good little sleeper on our hands for the most part, most of the time. But man, there are a few hiccups with Ellen’s sleep habits that really frustrate this tired mother and make me reluctant to officially give her the title of “good sleeper”.

First, she can’t nap on weekends because her brother is noisy. While I can certainly relate, I am quite concerned for what this will mean when she starts daycare, AKA the noise center of the universe. Girlfriend is never grumpy unless she is hungry or tired – both normally easy fixes. But the noise makes it suddenly difficult.

Yesterday, for example, she missed the all-important evening nap, ending approximately 1.5-2 hours before bedtime. And the result was a complete meltdown at 6pm and subsequently a very early bedtime. On a weekend, an evening meltdown/early bedtime is fine (loud, but fine). But on a workday after daycare it would mean I can’t make or eat dinner, and I wouldn’t get to see my family at all. Not a tempting prospect.

The second problem is at 5am. Yes, very specifically 5am. We usually end nighttime feeding number 2 around 4am, and inevitably, Noisy Baby comes back at 5am. She’s not awake, she’s not hungry. She’s just Noisy Baby. Sometimes I can ignore her enough to doze, but most of the time I spend an hour lying there listening to her. And sometimes, like today, I end up in her room because she did actually wake up. 

I can’t tell you how difficult this 5am issue makes it for me to feel rested. Even if the earlier portions of the night were great, I feel so tired because of the way the night ends. 

On nights like this one, it is even worse. I couldn’t fall asleep after the first feeding of the night, so I slept for 3.5 hours, was awake for 3 hours feeding Ellen and then laying in bed, got up to feed Ellen (up for another 45 mins for that), went back to sleep for less than an hour, and then 5am hit, Noisy Baby arrived, and now I’m back in her room. It is now nearly 6am, I should be getting her back to sleep shortly, and then I’ll go to bed to wait for Lewis to wake up. His usual time is between 6 and 7. Then it is game on for both me and Kyle.

So you see, this 5am problem is really not great. And combined with the no-naps-when-it’s-noisy problem, I’m anticipating a rough transition back to work in a couple weeks.